Mar Bar

this is part of a photo series i’ve been working on since 2011. it is a collection of photographs of badass women involved in metal, hardcore and the borderline metal/punk/avant-garde worlds. these are the people who make up the music scene. these are my friends.


What was your first metal experience?

Mar Bar: I’ve definitely always been into dark sounding music. I remember in junior high going to my friend’s house and watching MTV and seeing Portishead’s “Sour Times” music video and thinking, this song is for me. My music listening throughout my younger years was kind of all over the place. I was an orchestra geek and played Clarinet and really got into Benny Goodman.

Not till high school did I get into any metal. It was 1999 and I was 16. I got into Hole and Marilyn Manson. My friends and I formed a band, Lotus, and we wanted to sound just like a Hole/Manson combo. So when I heard they were touring together it basically blew my teenage mind. What stands out most for me was the theatrics of Manson’s show. Him rising up from a TV glowing cross, the pyro, fake snow and the stilts — I’d never seen anything like it. Hole was definitely not as exciting. Although I did love the amount of shit talking [Courtney Love] did on stage. Both her and Manson hated each other. Also I think she took her top off. Pretty sure that tour ended shortly after that show. So I’m glad I got to experience it before it died.


How did Rituals begin? The flyers are soooo good.

MB: Thanks!! I do motion graphics for work so flyer design kind of fits in with what I do for my career.

Rituals started out in late 2011. I had been going to a lot more of the Wierd parties that year that used to happen at Home Sweet Home and thought why wasn’t there something like that in Brooklyn. Me and my buddy Scott Ward decided to start DJing a monthly at K&M bar (RIP) where my friend bartended. We basically could do whatever we wanted there and mostly paid people with booze since we didn’t charge a cover. We finally started having bands play and eventually people started showing up. There were some amazing nights there. But it was too good to be true of course. The bar got new management and turned into a sports bar so us freaks were no longer welcome there. After that we were just floating around to whatever venue would have us. Scott exited soon after and then it turned into mostly me just booking shows and less into a DJ/ dance night. I think some of my favorite moments were from when we did some shows in the loft space at Public Assembly (also RIP) and the shows we booked at St Vitus.

Since you DJ, do you still listen to music for enjoyment. Or does listening feel like research?

MB: DJ is probably too nice of a term. Hah. I play mp3s sometimes. I wish I had the patience to DJ vinyl.

100% still listen to music for enjoyment. I need music to live. Music can change my entire mood and state of mind in an instant. I love how one song can trigger certain feelings or memories. Maybe it reminds you of a moment in time or a specific person or relationship. No day goes by that I’m not listening to music. I fall asleep to music. And my day to day music is like the soundtrack to my life. Corny, I know, but it is. And I love listening to soundtracks. Composers like Phillip Glass, Danny Elfman, Yann Tiersen, and John Williams have made movie scenes unforgettable moments just by using music to evoke a specific feeling.

Researching new music doesn’t feel like a chore. I love finding new bands to listen too. Or old bands that are new to me.


How did you get into motion animation and design?

MB: Ever since I was able to convince a history teacher in junior high to let me and my friends create “history videos” instead of write a report, is when I started to get into film/video/motion graphics. It started with me getting into editing my videos way back then and filming titles for them. Flipping a light on to pretend it’s a sunrise was probably the first visual effects I did. Not till I was older did I finally figure out that those things were actually jobs I could do.

What are some California bands you love(d) that never got/get enough attention?

MB: COAL CHAMBER! Haha But honestly I think most of the California bands I love all got or are still getting attention today. I’m definitely not one of those “let me tell you about this super obscure tiny band from this tiny town”. I grew up in the California suburbs and I was the only person in my friend group really interested in finding new music so a lot of the stuff I like I got from MTV and Beavis & Butthead. Haha so most of those bands already made it. But some of my favorite CA bands are Christian Death, Gun Club, The Cramps and of course my love for nu-metal … =P Korn, Deftones, System of a Down.


And now, for Fred, rank your beloved Korn albums from your favorite to least favorite.

1. Life is Peachy
2. Self-titled
3. Issues
4. Follow the Leader
5. Untouchables

Unfortunately, I stopped listening to their new stuff after high school so can only rate that far. But all you really need are the first 4 albums.


This year I saw Downtown Boys, Wax Idols, Karyn Crisis and shot portraits of people I love. I shot 9 people for my series (though I have yet to post half of them). And thanks to my caring friends, I survived another year working freelance. I love you all.

Jocelyn Shipley


Jocelyn Shipley is a sculptor, filmmaker, jewelry-maker, designer — just an all around creative person with impeccable taste.

What was your first metal experience?

When I was in Jr High I remember sitting on the floor cross-legged with my friend Debbie. She played Number of the Beast for me and it only took the intro to get me really excited … “its number is Six hundred and Sixty-six”. I loved Eddie immediately. All that classic metal album art was undeniable. Ozzy, Priest and Maiden were the finest!

I saw more punk and new wave shows back then. Out of Order was my first punk show, but the Butthole Surfers spoke directly to me. I remember how King and Teresa would duck behind their drums quickly between songs, supposedly doing lines of speed, but I’m not sure.

Correct me if I’m wrong, but your MFA project was a claymation sex film, right? What films are most inspiring to you? Which ones do you watch over and over?

Yes. It’s Klayrotica. The films were Cumtitled, Cumfused, Cumrodery, and Cumpromise. I’m inspired by so many directors and films David Cronenburg’s The Brood, Dario Argento’s Creepers (phenomenona), Herschell Gordon Lewis’ 2000 Maniacs, but the scene that is the most direct influence was Sam Raimi’s Evil Dead. In particular the scene when he burns the Book of Shadows and it makes the witch disintegrate into claymation and cornmeal mush. Also the rape scenes in Last House on the Left and the Accused were integral in me reaching the disturbing narratives in my Klayrotica pieces.

Movies I’ve watched way too many times:

Faster Pussycat Kill Kill
Logans Run
Texas Chainsaw Massacre


And now, what’s your favorite trashy TV shows to watch?

I love SVU! I wanna get cosmo’s with Mariska Hargitay. I loved the original Melrose place and remake of 90210. I can’t wait for new episodes of Nashville, regardless of the soundtrack. I’d like to be the earring stylist for Basketball Wives, but the show is unwatchable. I love Top Model, Kitchen Nightmares, Project Runway, Survivor, Bar Rescue, Xavier Renegade Angel. I’ll pretty much watch anything trashy, but Toddlers and Tiaras makes me sad. And, I watch Hoarders only for organizational inspiration.


What are some Chicago bands or artists you feel like should have gotten/get more attention?

I moved away from Chicago almost 20 years ago, crazy. I’m completely out of touch, but bands like Drunk Tank and Dirty Old Man River were charting new territory and never truly recognized. Bobby Conn still deserves more fans and I really loved Quintons earlier band Math and of course Rapeman ended too soon.

Hungry Man – Jocelyn Shipley

I did a slew of sculpture shows in Scandinavia starting in 2005 at Willy Wonka gallery, Oslo. This led to another show in Bergen, then Copenhagen and a few years later in Malmo, Sweden. I sold the Hungry Man to the richest woman in Norway. She has it in a plexiglass box in the lobby of her cosmetic company.

Lately you been working on Necronomicharm. What are some of the next shows will you be selling at? And if people want to get in touch with you to style their homes or stores or x-mas trees, how should they get in touch?

I’m selling at the Cathedral of the Black Goat Festival in Chicago next week, Saint Vitus Market in February and I’m gonna have my own tent at Deathfest this year!!

Email me at Necronomicharm [at]


Last, are you related to this Jocelyn Shipley?

No, and I sent her a message once and she never replied … maybe I seem scary.

Cristy C Road

this is part of a photo series i’ve been working on since 2011. it is a collection of photographs of badass women involved in metal, hardcore and the borderline metal/punk/avant-garde worlds. these are the people who make up the music scene. these are my friends.


Cristy C Road illustrates her life for public consumption. Her work perfectly describes the struggles of a young Latinx punk in the US: what it’s like to live in a world of absolute love (the community and affection of family) and hate (homophobia, nationalism, classism, etc) and confusion (because every part of you wants to destroy the system). Her latest project, The Next World Tarot, brings together spirituality and living on this earth as queer Latinx punk.

What was your first punk experience?
Cristy Road: Well, there was a lot of small little moments that pulled me in since I was a tiny kid, so here they are: The first was on Alvin and The Chipmunks, there was an episode called Chippunk and the chipmunks start playing punk music; they got arrested for noise complaints, but as a kid I straight up thought punk was illegal! So the idea of it was always in the back of my mind, like this thing that was so secret, it was illegal. I wasn’t into fast old school punk. I needed to eventually discover the Ramones and then Green Day to understand that theres a punk subgenre that I could totally fall in love with. After discovering Green Day in 1994, I started exploring their world, cause that was it. I loved their music and their lyrics in this deeply profound way, I wrote a book about it! And I loved the D.I.Y., super-queer, East Bay, CA punk circuit that they came from. It included queer and feminist bands like BLATZ and SPITBOY and PANSY DIVISION, and artists and zine writers like Aaron Cometbus and Janelle Blarg Hessig—that stuff really defined my whole pre-teen years. It helped me realize there was a place to go, as a closet baby-queer who was trying to understand her internal anger. From that point on, that love grew and I found ways to participate in that world. I started my zine in 1997 and became friends with this kid at school, Chuck Livid (before he became Chuck Livid and before I was Cristy C. Road); he introduced me to a lot of local stuff happening, and from that point on I kept searching, between triumphs, disasters, moving away, reconnecting. And here I am!

THIS story about your grandma. I love it so much. This isn’t really a question. When you posted this I sent it to a bunch of people. It’s perfect.




Since you started giving readings and working on your own Tarot deck, how has your life changed?

CR: I definitely have an understanding of my intuition now, and my anxiety and ptsd has always clouded that. Some backstory: I searched for a connection to magic a long time ago. I saw so many connections between witchcraft and my ancestry, feminism, and queerness; it felt like the REAL connection to the earth existed through magic, and we were kind of denied of that knowledge [through being around a conservative religious majority]. My family is Cuban and I grew up around a lot of conservative Catholic values, so finding punk left me sorta disconnected from my magic. I think it was important for me to strip myself of Catholic brainwashing, and religious ideas that were oppressive and especially homophobic. But then I was on this weird life plateau where I had NO connection to the earth—I was vegan and all about saving trees; but there was still this obvious rift between me and nature, that was obviously created by relating magic and spirituality* to religious dogma. I think exploring that connection, and the connections that existed LONG before colonialism and fundamentalist religions. Even in Catholicism itself, there was female martyrs; and in a lot of Latinx communities, that female power was manifested through becoming a Curandera, or a bruja. That, to me, felt like achieving an ultimate connection to the earth. So to answer your question—the Tarot was the first physical tool that helped me believe in that magic, and consider that maybe I deserve that connection. Making a deck myself emphasizes that power. But even still, I wouldn’t have found that power when I was first asked to do this as a collaboration in 2009, because I wasn’t out to my family, I felt distant from my culture, and I didnt know how to read Tarot—all that stuff changed around the same time and it all assisted each other.

*spirituality meaning access to the spirit world, your ancestors, your magic.

When I look at your work I’m reminded why it’s so important to create and to have feelings and then express those feelings. Which makes so much sense that you’re working on an MFA and plan on teaching. When/how did you realize that you wanted to teach?

CR: I always knew I wanted to educate people through art and music, or at least share my story with the intent of breaking silence; and I think I have felt “educated” from a lot of writers and artists who have done that. I entertained the idea of teaching art to high schoolers when I was in high school; so that was a big reason for attending undergraduate college for illustration. I was already illustrating and publishing zines; so I didn’t really see a reason for a degree unless I wanted a specific job that required that.

I was probably about 22 and living in Philadelphia when I realized that a big part of my “Activism” was education. I started working at an after-school program, when I moved to Philly after undergrad; and I enrolled in a program for teaching art in public school. This made me realize that I wasn’t fit for it. I can blame my astrological makeup and its high-gemini-content; or punk! But I definitely am not fit for such a huge responsibility. I needed to develop my art anyway, so I quit the program in 2005 and moved to Brooklyn, and have been focused on mostly making art ever since. I knew the direction I wanted my art to go in (discussing topics of sexuality and drugs); I needed time to myself. I really needed to soul seek. I’ve missed teaching ever since, but have been able to do a ton of workshops at schools and colleges, and thats definitely a big portion of what I do for a job. I primarily do freelance illustration, and I love the people I usually work with, but I’m not about to work harder for high-end clients; or write books that a publisher asks for. It’s just not in my abilities … sometimes its morals, but sometimes I know some things will be difficult or not for me. Ive always had other jobs, at restaurants mostly. I got to a point where I wanted to stick to a job and not stress about bills every month. I kinda loved working at restaurants and bars and still think maybe that will be something in the future, but I would always get fired for going on tour. I had to make a decision, and teaching art can accommodate traveling with my art in a different way. I also just miss teaching and talking about art and getting really stoked and having others get really stoked for their own work, you know?


What are some FL bands you love(d) that never got/get enough attention?

CR: Oh damn, well, here is a story: There was this band called Bitchin’, and as far as I remember, they had attention, a big album on No Idea records, and a lot of people loved them! I just loved them and their style of grungry southern pop-punk so deeply. I don’t think they got the attention they deserve (but they also were super punk and super not-willing to compromise their journey as artists). Samantha the singer had this band before Bitchin’, called VANBUILDERASS, that I actually think only had a 7″ record out. I LOVE THEM. They influenced my songwriting so damn much. Omg, everyone youtube that shit, cause its on there. Best band ever…

Another band that didnt last as long as I wished was TRENCHTOWN, amazing ska band from Miami. They were my friends, and we were all punk workaholics. Having such talented friends at the time felt like “well, thats how punk is, people do cool shit” — then you grow up and realize that not everyone in the punk scene is in a genius ska band with heavy roots reggae influence and beautiful duel femme and masculine vocals and an amazing ensemble with a huge Caribbean AND punk influence. So awesome. My closest friend in Trenchtown (Arielle Castillo) is actually a news reporter right now and she seriously covers Major League SOCCER. FYI.


What music is helping you get through your busy ass life?

CR: My taste in music is deeply inconsistent, aside from everything being super poppy and epic. But lately, my top choices to listen to while I work are hip hop (and reggaeton) by Orishas, Calle 13, and Ana Tijoux; and then punk music by Downtown Boys, Lipstick Homicide, and Mischief Brew—and always ska. All ska, but mostly traditional. Except at my house, you will def hear Less Than Jake and Save Ferris sandwiched between Desmond Dekker, The Selecter, and Toots and the Maytals.

If people wanted to get a tarot reading from you or have you lead a workshop, how should they get in touch with you?

CR: They are free to write me! All EVENT-BASED info is on, but all questions are welcome. I check my email frequently, especially if its an event proposal. As far as Tarot readings, Ive never offered them publicly, but if anyone wants one, I’m down to share. I take anything in exchange really: plants, pies, cookies. I don’t often ask for money, but accept it, and might make a public announcement soon for folks who aren’t in my immediate circle and might want to support the fundraiser for the deck. But for now, its mostly a “come to my house while I’m in the mood to give a reading” basis”. I always offer them when I have guests! I can’t help it. Either way, e-mail is best for anything: croadcore[at]

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